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Online Self? Real-World Self? Who am I really?



Last night I edited together a bunch of snapchats I have taken into a tiktok that I decided to call my "Quarantine Diaries" -- no part of my quarantine has been particularly interesting, but placing these snaps into a single video has done a few things for me: 1. Shown my ups and downs emotionally during this time 2. really underlined the fact that this could go on for another few months... I can't help thinking back to the beginning when I thought that I would do my own 14 days and then be free.


I shared this tiktok to my instagram stories to show what quarantine has really looked like for me in the hopes that someone could relate to my emotions and feeling shared in it. 

In my response to the lecture video, I said that the online persona you craft for yourself is almost always superficial... I think that I might contradict my own theory; OOPS.

In my case I do my best to represent the good and bad sides of myself to the internet. It is not because I feel that I owe anything to the internet, but I like the idea that in the sea of users who are plastic and fake, that there could be an ounce of reality on social media and if that reality is me then I am proud to show it off. -- and not on an instagram which is dedicated to posting the embarrassing aspects of my life, but on my insta, the "real one." I am the same way on my snapchat, I use it as a form of a diary of my emotions through day to day life I guess you could say.

There is a hashtag #MakeInstagramCasualAgain. This hashtag references the seriousness some people take when it comes to their feed and what they post. Some people take their instagram as serious as their school work and will plan out posts which match just so their feed stays up to their standards. I, on the other hand, whether it annoys my followers or not, will post what I want, when I want. I don't take myself too seriously online because I don't do that in the real world.

I am not sure what it says about me that my instagram has always been casual and that I like it that way. Does that make me authentic? or does that make me superficial because I am aiming to be authentic?

I am not sure of much these days... So I guess we can add it to my list of things that I am unsure of.

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