"This is FINE"

I struggled in thinking about this weeks post mainly because my days have all been so repetitive and boring that the thought of writing anything about them sounded painful to me.

After reading some of my classmates posts, I am somewhat grateful to be bored and have uneventful days in a time like this. I have my health and my family has their health and there is not much more I could ask for. I try to remind myself of this everyday when I inevitably start to become frustrated and angry with the whole situation. I have to remind myself that, this is a fine life to be living right now given the circumstances. 

Yesterday though was the first day I felt some sliver of inspiration to have a productive full day since this all began. -- It felt like immense progress compared to the days I have been living which were full of naps, self pity, and sadness. 

I was thinking about my personal situation the other day and I was considering the fact that if this quarantine period begun when I was here in America at school like usual, I don't think it would have hit me so hard. But because I was in Rome spending so many hours of each day outside walking, going out to dinner so frequently, grabbing coffee from the cafe everyday, this social distancing has been such a difficult transition. 

I hope my day of productivity turns into a routine and I can come out of this time with a sense of accomplishment and pride in myself for not wasting this time even though it could have been easily wasted. 

Here are some designs posted by a graphic designer which I follow on Instagram, they felt positive and bright like the way I would like to feel going forward...